tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27627502500210421702024-03-19T03:23:33.762-07:00Wilf's PoemsWilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.comBlogger187125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2762750250021042170.post-4854744799097791322024-02-09T12:28:00.000-08:002024-02-09T12:28:28.034-08:00SHADOW<p><br /></p><div>Out in the open desert </div><div>Under the bare sky and sun,</div><div>Away from You it is cold darkness,</div><div>But as Your shadow reaches over us </div><div>We are warm and safe in Your light.</div><div>And if we walk, </div><div>Or sit in despair</div><div>In the valley of the shadow of death</div><div>Your deeper shadow will cover us</div><div>We will fear no evil</div><div><br /></div><div><b><span style="font-size: 18px;">WILF Dec 2023</span></b></div>Wilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2762750250021042170.post-77190407933681558582019-02-04T14:41:00.000-08:002019-02-04T14:41:15.735-08:00When is a murder not a murder?<div dir="ltr" id="docs-internal-guid-722e0237-7fff-adb4-1e62-48d1839413cf" style="line-height: 1.3800000000000001; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">When the police rushed into 116 Buddleia Avenue they found Louise Slater lying on the sofa dead with Jim Slater beating her and cursing furiously. He was taken into custody on suspicion of murder, it seemed a straightforward case, although DCI. Miller wasn't so sure. When the lab results came back he was even more puzzled. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘ Everything alright boss?’ DI. Gill asked,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘ Post mortem results on Mrs. Slater, inconclusive as yet but it turns out her old man couldn't have killed her.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Gill looked up from his desk, ‘What? but he..’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Miller pushed his chair back, ‘ She died a few hours before we were called out. He was in town at the time at the chiropodist, all verified. It seems like what we found was some sort of outburst of grief.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘Where is he now?’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘Back home I expect.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Dave Gill squinted at his friend and boss, 'I'd say, “that's that then”, but I know that look, you've got something on your mind.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">That Look- of Miller’s was impenetrable until he had worked out what he thought, which was often crazy and usually right. ‘Mmm something, don't know what; but there's more to this. See if you can find out anything about the Slaters.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">He found out a lot about the Slaters over the next couple of weeks. Speaking to neighbors, local proprietors and Mrs Slaters’ friends he pieced together a very sad picture.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> Miller tossed the findings down, 'Jim Slater, what a piece of dog dirt, and his wife, an angel, why did she stay with him?’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Gill walked over from the filing cabinet, ‘ Well I just found out last night that she left him for another bloke about 20 years ago, and Slater being the loving forgiving type ha ha, had her back. And never let her forget it, but from what I gathered he’d treated her badly before that.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Miller got up and paced around, 'This is all very strange: he didn't love his wife, he seemed to despise her for some reason, and yet he was in such a state when we found him.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘Maybe he was overcome with guilt or remorse,’ Gill offered.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Miller shook his head, 'He should have been but he seemed angry.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Gill asked whether Slater might have been angry with himself, but Miller was thinking and heard nothing.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A couple of weeks later Gill had some news:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘Interesting development boss, Jim Slater has been admitted to mental hospital.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘Really? what's up with him?’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘The neighbors had been hearing a lot of banging from his house, and he'd been walking around the garden and the street muttering and shouting. I won't repeat some of the things he was saying but he kept referring to, “That bitch”, in pretty atrocious terms. He'd started punching walls.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘ Which hospital is he in?’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘ The one off the Newland Rd.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Miller looked pleased, 'Mmm, I know one of the consultants there. I think I'll go and have a chat with her.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A few days later Sarah Cunningham was sat with Mike Miller in a corner of the staff restaurant. She was staring into her coffee and talking half to Mike and half to herself, ‘ So the case is closed. But you're still following it up, “under the radar”, and I'm asked to report on a patient, “under the radar”. Which is another way of saying breaching every code of professional conduct </span><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: italic; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">and</span><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> breaking the law. So I could lose my job and end up in jail! Why can't I have ordinary friends?’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Mike knew that she would help him so he continued, 'Sarah, I’m pretty certain this guy killed his wife, and whether he ever comes to justice or not I have to find out for sure. These are some background reports that Dave put together about the Slaters from people who knew them.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">At that moment Mike's phone beeped a reminder, ‘ Sarah, got to go: meeting with the Boss. See what you can do.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">As Miller was grabbing his coat Sarah asked, “ By the way, this murdered women, how did she she die?’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘ Natural causes,’ and he was gone.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">There were a number of articles about Mrs Slater's death in the local paper over the next few weeks. One in particular risked a libel case due to its scathing account of Jim Slater's character, the only problem was everyone knew it was true.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> The shop assistant was wrapping up the coat that Sarah Cunningham had just purchased, ’She came in here you know with that husband of hers, she was a lovely woman, she asked if we stocked a particular brand: Tiklas, Scandinavian, ooh beautiful stuff, anyway she got the name wrong and asked for Rikki-Tikki Tavi, well we laughed. Until. He pulled her away. He was going on about how she'd humiliated him in public, made a right fuss. Dreadful man.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">The telephone went in DCI. Miller's office: ‘ Personal call for you sir, I don't know if you want to take it, it might be a joke: a lady who wouldn't give her name asking for Sherlock Miller.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Miller smiled, 'Put her through Debbie please.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘ Hello Sarah,’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘ How did you know it was me?’ She sounded surprised.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">'Well not because I'm a detective. Your sense of humour doesn't change!’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘I’ll take that as a compliment,’ she said, ‘can you meet me at that restaurant on the bridge tomorrow afternoon, the garden at the back is always quiet then, you're paying. I've got something for you.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> Mike liked this place: relaxed, classy, and slightly bohemian, 'Shall we share a bottle of wine with our food, by the way what are you having?’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Sarah looked up from the menu, ‘ I'll have the Beef and Horseradish platter, no wine for me I'll have a glass of beer please.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">'Beer?’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘ Yes, beef and beer, perfect. Anyway first off, why are you treating a natural death as a murder?’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘Because I don't think it was natural.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">When their food and drinks arrived and the waiter had gone back Mike was keen to hear what Sarah had to tell him.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">She began, ‘Jim Slater is currently in a time out room, which sounds nice but it's a padded cell, he's hitting things all the time. But I think it's what lies behind this that may be important for you: he has a personality disorder.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘You're not kidding the guy’s a complete sod.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Sarah continued, ‘ Yes, but this is a technical term for a group of disorders, one of them is narcissism, and your Jim Slater is a classic case, that is clear from the reports you gave me.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘ So what are the symptoms of this disorder?’ </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘ Controlling, lack of empathy: indeed a complete inability to understand or care about other people's feelings which they routinely crush. They try to own people, but refuse any kind of commitment themselves, they are very clever at laying guilt trips on people, they are never to blame for anything, they have a massive sense of entitlement,’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘That last one sounds like my kids!’ Mike laughed.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Sarah smiled too, ‘ but it is taken to very cruel degrees in this disorder.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Mike was intrigued, ‘ So what's going on with him now?’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> ‘That's a puzzle: narcissists use people and if those people escape they just move on to someone else, as long as they are feeding off someone they don't care. But there is something else at work here which means he can't move on. I think that is why he is so angry: angry with her for having the audacity to die; so now he has no-one to control.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘I reckon I need to do some reading up on Narcissism.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">'Read this then,’ Sarah passed him a booklet,’ It's a sort of dummies guide to personality disorders.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">'Careful, remember I'm paying.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Gill walked into the office, and noticed Sarah's booklet on the desk,‘ Thinking of becoming a shrink boss?’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘Don't think so, this job's hard but…. My consultant friend lent me this, have a read of the highlighted section and tell me what you think.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Five minutes later Gill had finished reading the booklet.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘ You could change the title from, “ How to spot a narcissist”, to “ How to spot Jim Slater,” ’ Gill observed, ‘it's all there: nasty control freak, puts people down all the time, blames everybody; and it seems his missus was at the receiving end of it all.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Miller shook his head,‘ How does someone live with that eh Dave?’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Miller was on the telephone when Gill came back from lunch.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘ Thank you very much for calling, Mrs. Edgely, I'll check my appointments and arrange to come and see you with my colleague, you've been most helpful. I'll be in touch.’ Miller looked very pleased, 'We’re going to Reading, Dave to see Jacqueline Edgely.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘ And who is she?’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘Louise Slater’s sister.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">It was to her sister that Louise had fled twenty years ago to escape her cruel domineering husband. She hadn't left him for another man: the rumours were untrue; she had just left him. And nine months later to Jacqueline's horror she went back to him as he appeared to be having some kind of mental breakdown. After that the two sisters had difficulty keeping in touch as letters were destroyed or hidden, but they did manage to keep up some contact over the years by Jacqueline sending letters to the post office where Louise would pick them up. She was as mystified as anyone as to why her sister stayed in such an abysmal situation.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Mike and Sarah sat down with two coffees,‘ So, I can see through layman's eyes how difficult it would be living with someone like Jim Slater but what does your experience of these things tell you? Could it bring on an early death for instance?’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Sarah thought for a moment, 'Mental pressure of any kind could have that effect, and goodness knows she had more than a fair share. But, there would be symptoms: like high blood pressure, high blood sugar maybe diabetes, low immune system, addictions, but from what that post mortem report says there weren't any signs of these, she just, died.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Mike kissed his wife goodnight as she went up to bed. The kids were asleep, it had been a lovely evening and he wasn't thinking about work. He turned on the TV. A documentary about the resettlement of Native Americans in the nineteenth century only mildly interested him but he left it on. He was half asleep when a comment caught his attention: “ Many otherwise strong and healthy native men died young for no apparent reason. Sympathetic people who knew them said that as they had been deliberately resettled on land far away and very different from their homelands they felt their lives had been stolen. They died of broken hearts”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">'That's it!’ he shouted, DCI. Miller was awake, so was was his wife now.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">She wandered back in, 'Are you alright darling? Ha, well I know you're not that's why I married you!’ </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Miller explained his discovery to Gill</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘ I'd been reading some accounts by people who have lived with narcissists, mostly partners, employees, sometimes kids. They all talk about having the life drained out of them, I'd imagined that being a purely mental phenomenon. But when I heard about the Native Americans dying, “of broken hearts,” as they put it, I realized that was what happened to Louise Slater, Jim Slater crushed and sucked the life out of her until there really wasn't any left.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘Huh, a murder that's not a murder, but really is one, that's a first for us. Looks like that </span><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: italic; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">is</span><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> that.’</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">‘I guess so, but I can't stop wondering what made old Slater turn out like he did?’</span></div>
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<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Wilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2762750250021042170.post-54515038175758882362018-12-20T15:10:00.000-08:002018-12-20T15:10:12.610-08:00Characters in Search of a Story<div dir="ltr" id="docs-internal-guid-1058959e-7fff-cb53-b983-dc665b333220" style="line-height: 1.3800000000000001; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">The man suddenly became aware of himself and then slowly, of a half lit stage which he didn't understand for a few minutes. But thoughts and ideas were coming very rapidly, like scrolls unrolling to him from many directions. He soon understood a lot of things.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> In the corner a middle-aged woman appeared, she had no expression on her face. Looking up towards him, at first she was puzzled, then she smiled and realised somehow that his name was Richard. And that hers was Vareena.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Richard was reading a notebook he had found in an office at the back of the stage. Vareena joined him and together they read outlines of their characters, their backgrounds and personal details, she discovered that she liked gin and tonic and wondered what it tasted like. Richard's pronounced Adam's apple was exactly how it was described. There was a lot of crossing out and some parts looked as if they had been spat on. On the front page barely visible was a title:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> “RICHARD AND VAREENA”,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> A play in(</span><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: italic; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> various numbers crossed out</span><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">) acts.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">They looked again and again through the notebook but there were no clues to any story. And the swift unrolling of thoughts and memories in them only told them about their past and not why they were here on an empty stage.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Then from somewhere came a loud hard noise and a cry followed by wails and sobs. They found the source of the noise: inside an apartment at the back of the theatre. By now the sobbing was quiet and weary. They stood in a yard outside the front door wondering what to do, but when desperate choking sounds came from inside, Vareena quickly went in. Richard followed and to his surprise saw her giving a blue faced man violent bear hugs from behind carefully flicking her silk scarf away as he spewed out a mess of flem and tablets; lots of tablets. She had remembered being a doctor and knew what to do. Richard gave him his handkerchief to wipe his face.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">The choking man was asleep. He had tried to shoot himself but the old gun hadn't worked, he'd smashed his desk with it, and then tried to swallow a great many sleeping tablets. When he eventually came round his bleary eyes set into a fixed stare at the two mysterious figures looking at him.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">“Hello Gordon”, said Richard and Vareena simultaneously.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">“My head felt like it had been hit with a brick, my guts were burning and I could hardly move. But when my eyes focused, I knew those two faces: the heroes of the play I couldn't write, Richard and Vareena, peering at me with that intense kindness I knew I would never be able to convey. I didn't know whether I was dead or alive, or something else, I'd certainly wanted to be dead: I've never known writer's block to get to me so much. I felt angry and cheated that I was still here, but this was overtaken by a growing outrage that here in front of me, holding my hands were two people who shouldn't exist, except in a script and on a stage.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">“They say they just appeared on the stage, and somehow their minds filled up with memories and knowledge of who they were but beyond that, they know as much as me. They don't seem to be bothered about the impossibility of this, but they're here and there's no arguing with that.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">After being put to bed that first night Gordon slept until early evening the next day. Over the next week Richard and Vareena gently nursed him back to health.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Gordon needed to get out, so the three of them walked into the West End, it was early Friday evening, not too busy. They wandered into a bar that boasted the largest selection of gins in London, and there Vareena discovered the taste of gin and tonic, Gordon just drank orange juice. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> It was late when they returned to Gordon’s place, he felt much better but he was very tired. When he bid his strange friends goodnight he didn't really hear their reply: “Goodnight, Gordon,” they said almost in unison, “you’ll see us again.” Richard looked at Vareena, “ Home?” Looking up towards him, at first she was puzzled, then she smiled and nodded.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> In the morning they were gone.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Gordon was wide awake, he couldn't stop thinking about the past few days with the mysterious couple, “ Who the hell were they, where did they come from, where have they gone, and why were they so good to me? With all those tablets and my pathetic mental state maybe I imagined it all. Perhaps I should go and see someone and get help.” </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> By lunch time he had decided that it had all been some kind of mental episode, and went into town to try and forget it. He passed the gin bar and went in, his agent Jerry sometimes came here. It would be good to bump into him.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">“ Gin and Orange without the gin please”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">“ How come you're drinking orange juice?” Beryl the landlady asked.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">“Oh, I've not been well.” Just then he noticed something behind the bar; his mouth dropped and he stared.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">“ You alright? You look like you've seen a ghost, and we ain't got any since that priest came, what's the matter?”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Gordon was staring at Vareena's silk scarf hanging on a hook by the mirror.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">“ Er, that, scarf, it's my friend's, we were in here the other day.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">“Oh yea, she left it here, very nice, Liberty by the looks of it, you'd better take it to your friend.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">When Gordon came home he layed the scarf on the table and stuffed his hands into his pockets; Richard’s hanky! He'd forgotten. He placed it flat on the table by the scarf. A dirty hanky stiff with dried flem, and a beautiful blue silk scarf with an abstract diamond pattern. He stared at them for a long time, then he began to cry. For a long, long time.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">The following day the telephone rang. For the first time in weeks he picked it up. “ Gordon! I've been trying to get you for ages,” It was Jerry, “ Listen I know you've been going through a hard time but I've had ‘Nightmare’ from the BBC on to me. She really wants a new play from you for this Thursday evening series in the Autumn, darling they love your stuff but they won't wait. I hate to be a bull…” “Good to hear you Jerry, sorry I've been a bit elusive lately. She'll have a finished script by the end of the week. Three episodes.” Jerry was surprised and happy, “ What's it about?”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">“ Oh failed suicide, people appearing from nowhere and then disappearing. But mainly kindness” </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">“Kindness?” </span></div>
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Wilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2762750250021042170.post-22267680621781060062018-10-29T06:29:00.002-07:002019-08-24T15:03:33.419-07:00Empty Crosses<div dir="ltr" id="docs-internal-guid-30b682e1-7fff-62a4-73a7-7e3b725aa827" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> EMPTY CROSSES</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">1</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">After it had finished I waited with Mary,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">When everyone had gone, we went up the hill,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">But through our tears we couldn't see</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Which empty cross was ours.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">We could hardly see while it was going on</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">And now among the jumble of wood we couldn't tell.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">We would have taken it home if we knew:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">He had touched that wood.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">2</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">They told me that crosses were bad:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">You might end up worshipping an idol.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">But I didn't want to do that,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I wanted something to focus my unruly mind.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">They said if I did have a cross it had to be empty </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Because Jesus wasn't there any more,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I understand, but every cross is empty now</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">How would I know which one is His?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">3</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">This step, so small, yet impossible</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A trivial sacrifice that I cannot but must make.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">To think that this is the very cross</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">That He said we must bear!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">His cross was bigger than the world </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I don't understand it</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Mine; immeasurably small, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I understand it well: it will kill me.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Into resurrection.</span></div>
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<br />Wilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2762750250021042170.post-63231948877105608292018-07-26T09:16:00.001-07:002018-07-26T09:16:44.029-07:00Pansy Boy<div dir="ltr" id="docs-internal-guid-9e0b3eaf-d75f-33a6-56a8-fbb46686069e" style="line-height: 1.3800000000000001; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> PANSY BOY</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">There he was,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Out,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Out on his own </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Out in the cold because he was different.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">You couldn't miss him, even with his head down</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">All colour and beauty</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">They called him, “Pansy”, they were right, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">But not for any reason they knew.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">All his life had been a winter of cruelty</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">He sighed and cried prayed and</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Stayed right through the coldest times</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">And he blossomed </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Pansy: beautiful tough.</span></div>
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Wilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2762750250021042170.post-38292891752247763032018-07-26T09:14:00.002-07:002018-07-26T09:14:44.685-07:00Today, Give Flowers to the Dead<div dir="ltr" id="docs-internal-guid-35212490-d75c-c234-cf77-763fa0ef2dfd" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Today, give flowers to the dead </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Yesterday they weren't here </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Tomorrow they will be gone.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Today.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">The poor you can give to yesterday</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">(Oh, but you didn't) or tomorrow,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">They will still be here</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">They are always here.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Any other day you can give to them</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">But today give flowers to the dead</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Fill their graves to overflowing</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Let today be a day of waste.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> WILF 06/ 2018</span></div>
Wilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2762750250021042170.post-46160847954708002832018-07-03T06:03:00.002-07:002018-07-03T06:03:46.734-07:00A Prayer<div dir="ltr" id="docs-internal-guid-2c54fc0b-603b-6a69-903c-5e04da591b17" style="line-height: 1.3800000000000001; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> A PRAYER</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Lord I don't know what to say</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I have no confidence that my words </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Could express my heart</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">And,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Even if I spoke to You in the tongues </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Of men and angels……….</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">But take my sighs: the breath of my heart</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">These informed words</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Whatever they may be they are my heart,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">They are for You, All Knowing One</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I know you will understand</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">And answer me</span></div>
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Wilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2762750250021042170.post-57433974051874822142017-12-16T08:51:00.002-08:002017-12-16T08:51:39.799-08:00Cross<div dir="ltr" id="docs-internal-guid-5e9d86c8-6003-a868-5c83-1ea3ef5767c3" style="line-height: 1.3800000000000001; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline;"> CROSS</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline;">On a night when something beautiful died,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline;">I glanced at the large wooden cross </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline;">Above our fire</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline;">It reminded me of somewhere You'd been,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline;">On a day when something beautiful died.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline;">The cross was hard, awkward, unyielding</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline;">Like everything else in that moment</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline;">But I had to cling to it maybe somehow</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline;">I could be closer to You.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline;">Your beauty had died, mine too</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline;">My grief burst</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline;">The wood melted </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline;">Warm and soft like a body</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline;">I embraced it, You embraced me</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline;">In the sacrament of that moment</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline;">In the cross You ask us all to bear.</span></div>
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Wilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2762750250021042170.post-66814131113696862852017-12-12T09:08:00.001-08:002017-12-13T09:06:36.324-08:00Four Short Poems<div dir="ltr" id="docs-internal-guid-5e9d86c8-4b75-a8de-b1c4-6567243b6129" style="line-height: 1.3800000000000001; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;"> VESSEL</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Dirty earth</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Mixed with blood</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Kneaded and spun, fired and dipped and fired</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">And then</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">A pot to hold the molten gold</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">And pour the blood</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">On to dirty earth</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;"> ANSWERED PRAYER</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">I wrote you a letter.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">I didn't know your name,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">And I had no words but I wrote anyway.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">I didn't know where you lived </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">So I slid it in a blank envelope </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Which somehow found your door</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">I didn't think You knew I was here</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Or there </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;"> or anywhere or,..</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;"> or any body</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">But in the days that followed</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">The answer came, right here,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">To me.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;"> Wilf Dec 2017</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;"> MINUTES</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">You turn the minutes, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">These empty minutes</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Into moments,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">These moments </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Into a life,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">A life into</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Our life</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">And all that life has come to be</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Comes to be in this moment</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">In You</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;"> </span><span style="font-family: arial; font-size: 11pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt;"> PICKING GRAPES IN TIME OF WAR</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">It seems frivolous to be doing this now </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">When people are fighting and dying</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">In a desert war in the Midlands</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">But these grapes dried under the high sun </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Are for the weary soldiers,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">It seems frivolous to be treading grapes</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">In this time </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">When the poor are being crushed.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">But the feet that tread this fruit </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Are the feet that have trod the path:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">And wine gladdens the heart</span></div>
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Wilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2762750250021042170.post-1457654476785156382017-09-29T15:07:00.002-07:002017-09-29T15:07:18.619-07:00The Lost Son<div dir="ltr" id="docs-internal-guid-5e9d86c8-cf75-976c-2657-17648b254677" style="line-height: 1.3800000000000001; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;"> THE LOST SON</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">It was such a joyful day when Yaron came home. He looked half dead, but that was good as I had feared he was dead. A joyful day, a great feast; but it ended in sadness that has become like a twisting knife. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;"> Saddiq was such a good boy. But when Yaron came back, he changed: first he was cold and distant to his brother, then to me for welcoming him back. Now he doesn't even speak to his mother, poor Anna she weeps herself to sleep most nights. But Saddiq is in the synagogue as always as if nothing is wrong and this year he has been to the temple in Jerusalem three times, once right in the middle of harvest. Yaron did the work of three men then. Oh my Saddiq, does he think he can talk to God even though he will not speak to us?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;"> I always knew that Yaron would be back. Now he is so grateful for everything, but it is not easy for him: while he was away he fell in love with a beautiful Phoenician woman. He found out that she was a prostitute, it broke his heart. Sometimes at night I hear him praying for Father God to take away his love for her, he misses her badly.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;"> Yes I always knew he would come back, but I am not so sure about Saddiq. He is in a dark and bitter place, further away than Yaron ever was, I have never seen this, is there a way back from such a place? If there is a God in heaven there has to be. But will my Saddiq come that way?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;"> I hope, I pray, but I do not know.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;"> Wilf Sep 2017</span>Wilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2762750250021042170.post-90682046081862299442017-08-25T03:26:00.003-07:002023-12-20T15:29:48.460-08:00Judas<div dir="ltr" id="docs-internal-guid-5e9d86c8-18ec-d0e1-c6ac-8a7c60e28012" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Green ‘Follow Me’.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Leaf curls He smiles</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Spring Spring</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Wind ‘Heal the sick’. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Leaf curls He smiles</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Summer Summer</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Brown 30 pieces,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Leaf curls He smiles</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Autumn Autumn</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Ground A kiss,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Leaf curls He smiles</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Green <b><i>.</i></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Leaf curls <b>.</b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;">Spring <b>.</b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 11pt; vertical-align: baseline;"> Wilf 06/ 2017</span>Wilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2762750250021042170.post-23367974215535798802017-07-19T15:12:00.003-07:002017-07-24T15:41:21.621-07:00The Last of the Great HaberdashersTHE LAST OF THE GREAT HABERDASHERS<br />
Herbert paused by the shop door for the last time. He remembered some of the<br />
wonderful, eccentric and heroically impossible customers he had known over the<br />
years at "Climbury and Son Gents' Outfitters and Specialist Haberdashers". One in<br />
particular was old Popkiss, the professor of mathematics who had been coming in for<br />
30 years with his hopelessly incorrect measurements carefully written out to order his<br />
suits, but Herbert Climbury was a master of his art. One glance at a person coming<br />
through the revolving brass doors and he could tell all their measurements before<br />
they reached the counter, the professor's suits fitted perfectly. He thought about his<br />
dad who had taught him all he knew.<br />
Herbert Senior had ended up in India after World War 1 and there<br />
he met a mysterious Englishman called Cyril who was a tailor, he gave Herbert the<br />
idea to start the business which he did when he returned home in the Twenties.<br />
Apparently this chap Cyril was part of a secret society, which, unlikely as it sounds,<br />
involved tailoring and certain martial arts.' "The Guild of Master Folders and<br />
Haberdashers", they'd never believe it these days', he mused. But this was how<br />
Herbert junior had learned how to size up people with such uncanny accuracy.<br />
He locked the door for the last time, tomorrow he and Sarah would be on<br />
their way to their cottage in Wiltshire where they would spend their retirement. Still,<br />
he was a little sad as he walked up the High St.<br />
He popped into Marks and Spencer's, "just one last time", he<br />
thought. He wandered over to the sweater displays and picking up something he<br />
rather liked went over to the mirror and stood posing with it. He put the sweater back<br />
neatly as only he could, and bid a cheery goodnight to the two assistants whom he<br />
hadn't noticed before. Herbert chuckled as he walked home, "The Guild of Master<br />
Folders, they'd never believe it these days"<br />
Back at Marks, Dierdre and Sharon stared at each other, their mouths still<br />
open in amazement; they had just witnessed Herbert Climbury throw a green argyle<br />
pattern sweater through the air, its sleeves waving wildly, then folding themselves<br />
with the front and back into the neatest of squares as if manipulated by invisible<br />
hands it inserted itself perfectly into the display pile. They couldn't believe it.<br />
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WILF Jan 2017Wilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2762750250021042170.post-18170325362450492162017-07-04T07:16:00.001-07:002017-07-07T00:16:08.122-07:00Living Stones<div align="left" ><p dir="ltr"><br>
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LIVING STONES</p>
<p dir="ltr">How lovely stands the city,</p>
<p dir="ltr">Once so full of people full of gold</p>
<p dir="ltr">How lovely stands this city</p>
<p dir="ltr">Full of gold,<br></p>
<p dir="ltr">In this furnace of injustice</p>
<p dir="ltr">The gold has melted, spread thinner</p>
<p dir="ltr">Now it shines more brightly.</p>
<p dir="ltr">In injustice the inscrutable hand</p>
<p dir="ltr">Of God may or may not be found<br></p>
<p dir="ltr">In this intense heat and pressure,</p>
<p dir="ltr">Structures break, protections fall:</p>
<p dir="ltr">Ribs bend and crack</p>
<p dir="ltr">As hearts are pulled close.<br></p>
<p dir="ltr">Love lives here despite us,</p>
<p dir="ltr">Despite those who were, Them</p>
<p dir="ltr">Before we forgave them.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Love lives here</p>
<p dir="ltr">Love lives here</p>
<p dir="ltr">Love lives here</p>
<p dir="ltr">The hand of God.</p>
<p dir="ltr">                                 WILF 06/2017<br></p>
Wilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2762750250021042170.post-84773557343259196232017-05-22T08:24:00.001-07:002017-05-22T08:33:15.506-07:00Mountain Walks ( For C.V.)<p dir="ltr">                MOUNTAIN WALKS (FOR C.V.)</p>
<p dir="ltr">I think if you walked in these mountains  </p>
<p dir="ltr">Alone, believing nothing,</p>
<p dir="ltr">You would still be changed <u>s</u>omehow</p>
<p dir="ltr">In a somewhere </p>
<p dir="ltr">Deep inside the soul</p>
<p dir="ltr">You do not believe you have.<br></p>
<p dir="ltr">If you walk these mountains alone</p>
<p dir="ltr">Believing that you, like them</p>
<p dir="ltr">Are  made of earth by</p>
<p dir="ltr">The Father of  souls</p>
<p dir="ltr">You would not be alone.<br></p>
<p dir="ltr">If you walk these mountains</p>
<p dir="ltr">With a friend, this kind of friend,</p>
<p dir="ltr">Then the snow and the sky </p>
<p dir="ltr">The rocks and the moss</p>
<p dir="ltr">All reveal the knowledge of God</p>
<p dir="ltr">In friendship’s light which is stronger</p>
<p dir="ltr">In this thin mountain air.</p>
<p dir="ltr">                                        WILF 05 2017</p>
Wilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2762750250021042170.post-34741972742337119922017-05-22T08:21:00.001-07:002017-06-02T13:33:28.314-07:00Me and Ms. Simone<p dir="ltr">             ME AND MS. SIMONE</p>
<p dir="ltr">Ain't got no common ground:</p>
<p dir="ltr">She understands Bach, I don't.</p>
<p dir="ltr">She's a woman, I'm not.</p>
<p dir="ltr">She plays piano, I can't.</p>
<p dir="ltr">She sings; don't ask!</p>
<p dir="ltr">She's beautiful, I'm not.</p>
<p dir="ltr">She's black, I'm not.</p>
<p dir="ltr">She's angry, I'm not,<br></p>
<p dir="ltr">But when she said</p>
<p dir="ltr">"What I want is to live with no fear"</p>
<p dir="ltr">Her tortured eyes told me</p>
<p dir="ltr">We're in the same place.<br></p>
<p dir="ltr">                                    WILF 05 2017</p>
Wilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2762750250021042170.post-73380225944484838182017-03-25T13:44:00.001-07:002017-03-25T14:21:15.949-07:00How Lord<p dir="ltr">      HOW LORD</p>
<p dir="ltr">How have we come to this?<br>
Some of the best souls of my generation <br>
Swept off the main streets into back alleys to get lost<br>
In the name of..... <br>
And in the meantime our sons and daughters <br>
Worth their weight in gold<br>
Wander those same streets fatherless.<br>
Yes, I know something had to be done<br>
But how did we come to this?</p>
<p dir="ltr">As I have looked on helplessly<br>
I sometimes think this has broken me beyond repair:<br>
I wish there was something in me,<br>
That could take my anger and grief<br>
And lead them in a protest against<br>
All<br>
This<br>
But I am  too docile,<br>
Maybe it is the silence of the Lamb <br>
Holy and meek,<br>
Maybe it is the battered sadness of a victim <br>
A victim of this clean up job <br>
Which has made more victims<br>
As it purges out the 'sinners' from the Friend of sinners' church<br>
All in the name....Yes all in that Name</p>
<p dir="ltr">I wish I could cry like Jeremiah did<br>
He had a tender heart.<br>
Mine is tender too because it is bruised<br>
Dear God heal me<br>
Do not leave me too numb to cry<br>
For this church I love.</p>
<p dir="ltr">                              Wilf Mar 2017</p>
Wilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2762750250021042170.post-9544449745299510272017-03-25T13:41:00.001-07:002017-03-25T13:41:21.847-07:00Thickening<p dir="ltr"> THICKENING <br>
<br>
Combing the twilight air <br>
Then, <br>
A thread of hair from nowhere <br>
Somewhere in the air <br>
Leading to a face <br>
And a mind whispering, <br>
<br>
This and thats of what consequence? <br>
Then <br>
Threads of thought lace and <br>
The rope of poetry <br>
Thickens. <br>
<br>
WILF Mar 2017</p>
Wilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2762750250021042170.post-92185523298564690862017-03-25T13:32:00.001-07:002017-07-24T15:40:19.542-07:00The First Time<p dir="ltr">             The First Time <br>
The first time ever I felt God near<br>
He was a ball of darkness<br>
Darker than the blackness of my room<br>
Impenetrable and alien<br>
It took away my will to breathe<br>
As I sat in my bed, terrified and thrilled</p>
<p dir="ltr">Days later He came as a gathering storm<br>
Wanting to take my heart and blow through me</p>
<p dir="ltr">There have been so many times since <br>
Not always the terror but<br>
Always that familiar first time feeling, <br>
Something virgin being experienced, and experiencing</p>
<p dir="ltr">Tonight,<br>
Lying here alone in my bed  <br>
Whispering, 'I love You, I Love You I.....<br>
And joy rising up and up and up<br>
Into the the warm night.</p>
<p dir="ltr">This is the first time again,<br>
And the closer you come the more I wonder Who You are. <br>
I always have the same prayer<br>
" Hello I love You tell me Your name"<br>
You always give the same answer.<br>
It is always a surprise.</p>
<p dir="ltr">                            WILF FEB 2017</p>
Wilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2762750250021042170.post-49030825663984745572017-01-11T08:47:00.002-08:002017-03-19T21:53:25.419-07:00Moon Music MOON MUSIC<br>
<br>
Your gravity pulls our strings<br>
Changing our tune, like the colours of the night<br>
Not easy to see what it is we hear<br>
It is mostly nothing but then,<br>
Then it is disturbing;<br>
That shouldn't go with this which never works with that.<br>
God who should be drawing out harmoniously well behaved music<br>
Stooping into this dissonance ?<br>
<br>
Stooping, when really You should be in heaven, with all those harps<br>
Like a proper God.<br>
But I'm glad You are not as we imagine<br>
And though these strings ache at every pull,<br>
There is the pattern<br>
Of something beautiful and eternal being created.<br>
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WILF Jan 2017<br>
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Wilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2762750250021042170.post-79991647818900196782017-01-11T08:42:00.000-08:002017-11-10T14:09:18.302-08:00Winter Meditation WINTER MEDITATION<br />
Winter sun is weak but does not surrender,<br />
Throwing silver swords<br />
Onto the frozen grass<br />
The war goes on.<br />
<br />
The summer sun cannot reach into here<br />
Through the growing green.<br />
This place was made to know the sun<br />
In winter<br />
Low light through bare trees<br />
Secrets shining in and into the cold<br />
<br />
Those bare trees<br />
I have heard their dwellers many times<br />
But here in the barest time of all<br />
I can see them, lovely in their spindly homes.<br />
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The sky, when it showed was a shy blue<br />
So assured of who it was<br />
It did not need to look Imperial<br />
To be the conquering canopy of all below<br />
WILF Jan 2017<br />
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<br />
One is the greatest but,<br />
(Two would be too small, too many, odd)<br />
Three is the simplest number<br />
God<br />
Wilf Nov 2016Wilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2762750250021042170.post-30300160927438166752016-09-20T08:24:00.001-07:002016-09-20T08:24:11.318-07:00Different Light In this 21st century light<br />
You look like anyone else<br />
From your time and place<br />
In the Middle East.<br />
<br />
In the half light of my half journey<br />
Colours begin to sleep<br />
Something else comes to life<br />
The lines in your face like river beds<br />
Compassion and Grief<br />
Carved out for us.<br />
<br />
When darkness comes<br />
Timeless and<br />
Inevitable this far down the road<br />
I know by senses I do not know<br />
That You are there smiling<br />
Like a young moon<br />
The light of unquenchable kindness<br />
In your unseen eyes<br />
Wilf Sep 2016Wilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2762750250021042170.post-80751887528961786062016-09-20T08:03:00.001-07:002018-11-18T14:16:27.081-08:00MosesMeek, fearful, murderer,<br />
Friend of God soon to die<br />
Looking back<br />
From his last mountain path<br />
Back over the forty year long desert<br />
Every bush is burning<br />
Wilf SEP 2016Wilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2762750250021042170.post-58154394452970261802016-09-20T07:54:00.002-07:002016-09-20T08:06:21.235-07:00LullabyJesus come to me<br />
The shadows are long and sharp<br />
The night is not at rest<br />
Wars rage and rage wars<br />
Only you who never sleep are at rest<br />
Sweet Jesus give me sleep<br />
Wilf Sep 2016Wilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2762750250021042170.post-44035614520625868652016-08-27T14:30:00.002-07:002016-08-27T14:49:15.646-07:00You Are YOU ARE<br />
<br />
Closer<br />
Simpler<br />
Stranger<br />
Less Lord<br />
More Friend<br />
But only because<br />
I didn't fully understand<br />
What a Lord was, or a friend<br />
But now I know a little more<br />
. You are no less Lord<br />
And much more<br />
A Friend<br />
Strange<br />
Simple<br />
Close<br />
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Wilf Aug 2016Wilf's Poemshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04032497849410584796noreply@blogger.com0